Saturday, November 1, 2008

Fall Photos in Ithaca


Gorgeous. I LOVE this photo of the berries.


My obligatory "One Red Leaf" photo, which I feel compelled to take every fall.


A cello hanging on the side of the house. Wouldn't it be cool if that was the mailbox?


The sun shining through the grapevines. When the grapes ripened they landed on the car parked underneath. Maybe not such a good plan.






Reminds me of the TONS of firewood we stacked growing up. No, really, TONS.



Beer bottles on the porch down the street.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Studying Dante, Chapters 5 and 6

Chapter 5
Sao Luis, Brazil
The sun was high in the sky as the boat made port in Sao Luis. Dante was scheduled to meet with Jose Eduardo Tavares Silva, one of the most powerful men in this part of the world at the time. Dante was adamant with Fiona that she leave the boat. She knew this couldn’t be good, though he had assured her at the start of this journey that he had put aside his past for her.
Fiona threw on a pareo over her bikini, grabbed her bag and sunglasses and left for the marketplace. She had stopped at every port and found some meaningless little trinket to keep as a journal of their trip.
The sun beat down on sand covered cobblestone. The market was full, and Fiona spoke no Portuguese. But the sounds of the language left her lost into her own imagination, and she seemed in a haze as she wandered past stall after stall of foods, clothing, and gifts. The smells enticed her and suddenly she realized just how hungry she was.
Just as her hunger pulled her from her reverie, she became suddenly aware of all the sights and sounds around her. Musicians playing in the shade of a building. People everywhere, pushing past her to get through the market. Children playing soccer off to one side of the crowd.
And shots being fired.
Fiona’s head whipped toward the direction of the boat, and she sprinted back to the marina, dodging past children and animals. She had never run that fast in her life for anything, but she knew in her heart what that sound meant. The wind caught her hat and ripped it from her head, but in her panic she didn’t even give it a second thought.
As she ran, she muttered to herself,
“No. He can't be hurt. Not after all this. If he is taken from me I will never live again.”
She made it back to the boat and found Dante on the deck, clearly injured.
Fiona collapsed onto the deck next to him, her eyes rapidly surveying the situation before her. She asked him breathlessly,
“How ..bad..is it?”
Dante smiled weakly at Fiona, and grimaced as he took a breath to speak.
(wincing from the pain)
“Not bad. I'll be fine. Nothing to worry about. Really, sweetness, it's just a flesh wound.”
Fiona, staring at the new hole in his leg, appeared unconvinced at his reassurance.
“I thought you left that life behind when we sailed away.”

“I did. There was a last minute loose end to tie up.”
He turned his head to the left, and Fiona followed his gaze. Silva was tied and spewing what could only be obscenities. Fiona stood up and grabbed an old shirt from her bag and used it to gag Silva. She then turned her attention back to Dante to help him. She had never gotten over the first time she had removed a bullet from her love. As she closed her eyes just now she could see it:
Fiona and Dante were in a barren Paris apartment. Dante was weak from the pain, and Fiona was removing the bullet that was lodged deep in his shoulder. There was blood all over his white undershirt, and all over Fiona's hands, making it hard to use the very basic surgical tools she had. He had been shot in the back of his right shoulder, defending her. She had never forgotten that she owed him her life.
As she shook off the memory, Fiona pulled him close to her and vowed silently to never let him go. He finished wrapping the injury, and stood up slowly. He walked over to Silva as he was attaching the silencer to his gun. One shot. Done. Loose ends tied up.
Dante took a swallow of rum from his flask to kill the pain, and then picked Fiona up in his arms and carried her, despite the searing pain in his leg. He brought her to bed, and he was different with her this time. Rather than the hard, passionate, intense love he was generally known for, he took his time with her.
The next morning, Dante was startled awake by the sound of a tugboat horn and sat up with a sudden jerk. His recollection of the night before made him smile as he turned to see the empty berth beside him. Shaking off the morning, he got up and realized Fiona was not on board. Climbing carefully up to the cockpit he glanced out, his eyes squinting on the morning light.
“Fiona?”
He limped back down below and that’s when he saw a note attached to the portside settee.
Dante,
Last night brought me someplace I thought I had always hoped for, and you have brought me to places I've never seen before. For that I will be eternally grateful. I apologize for leaving this way but I cannot continue down the road we’re on.
I hope you understand.
All my love, FP.
Dante crumpled the note and threw it to the floor. His jaw set in its usual sharp angle, he furrowed his brow in concentration. He didn’t understand what just happened; he knew that Fiona had been falling for him over the years and that their relationship had changed dramatically with the beginning of their current journey. But he was certain that this was exactly what she wanted. It was becoming clear to him that he simply did not understand his sweet Fiona.
“Dammit.”
He took a quick shower and made his way to his 1980 BMW R-series motorcycle that he kept parked in town. His eyes scanned the marketplace to see if Fiona found her way there. Suddenly, the sound of bullet piercing a stucco wall was heard as it ricocheted off the wall next to Dante. He leapt behind a fruit cart and pulled out his gun. Another shot was heard as it hit a watermelon by Dante's head. His eyes darted around in an attempt to find the shooter.

“Where are those shots coming from?”
Dante continued to look around, his eyes skimming the crowd and the upper windows surrounding the market. The shooter remained hidden in the shadows, and as Dante’s attention was turned toward the windows, slowly brought his gun out straight, pointed it at Dante's head and pulled the trigger. A shot rang out and Dante turned to see the shooter, now with blood trickling down his forehead, as he fell to the ground revealing Fiona Patrick holding the smoking gun. Dante looked at her incredulously, and the furrowed brow grew deeper. She lowered her weapon and raised one eyebrow.
“What would you do without me?”

Chapter 6

Dante stood before Fiona, dumbstruck at what he was hearing. He began to pace the floor as he attempted to piece it all together.
“So, are you saying that...no. You couldn't have been. I just- I - I don't understand.”
Fiona gave a little smile, and stood up, reaching her arms out to stop Dante's pacing. With one hand on each of his forearms, she could feel his strength.
“You needed watching over. The agency knew it, and I agreed. I never expected to fall for you. Sleeping with you was an acceptable risk, but the rest I had never bargained for.
“So, you were at all of them?” Dante returned to pacing as he questioned this woman who he thought he knew.
“Yes, all of them.”
“And those trips into the markets when we made port?”
“All jobs given to me by the agency.” Fiona took a deep breath as she watched him pace in the very small room on the boat. She knew he would find this out eventually, he was too resourceful.
“And all the times you asked me to stop? Was that real, or just part of your orders?” Dante was angry, and Fiona knew that she would only be able to say so much to bring him back.
“I did- no, I do want you to stop. I care too much to watch you continue this life. For me, this was the only way I knew to live. But you deserve better.”
“So, you're not really a supermodel? I don't understand, I went to the photo shoots. I saw the magazines. You were on E Network, for crying out loud!!”
Fiona stopped him again, this time holding him more firmly. She looked deep into his eyes as she responded.
“You know how far the agency reach was. You know what they're capable of. I mean, Jesus, they put that idiot in the White House just to fool the terrorists into thinking we didn't know what we were doing. That takes serious power.”
Dante took a long hard look into Fiona’s perfect face, searching for some sign that she was pulling his leg. As hard as he looked, no such sign appeared.
“How long has this been going on?”
Fiona dropped her gaze to the floor, her long hair falling to the sides. Without realizing what she was doing, she began twirling a section of hair on her finger.
“Longer than I care to admit.”
Dante stopped questioning her, and tried to wrap his head around the truth. Everything he knew was built on a fallacy. And he was angry about that. Yet, when he thought about all that he was sure she must be capable of, he realized that it was quite a thought. He imagined her in training, and suddenly saw a bright side to the situation. He placed one finger under her chin and lifted her face toward his. He took a moment to gaze at Fiona, searching her face once more for some sign of a practical joke. There was admiration and respect. There was something else, though. A twinkle in her eye. She had always been great at reading his mind. Dante wondered if she knew where his mind had wandered the moment before.
Testing his theory, he grabbed her hard and pulled her in for a kiss. Only this time it was no gentle, soul-searching kiss. It was firm and it made sure she knew that he was in charge of her. She followed his commands easily and let him pick her up and shove her body into the wall as she wraps her long muscular legs around his waist. He leaned into her, and she pushed back with the same strength and enthusiasm as was to be expected from a woman in her line of work. He held her there, against the wall, continuing to push against her, as he reached down with one hand and ripped open her gauzy cotton blouse. Fiona moaned, arched her back into his motion, and her eyelids fluttered gently as her eyes rolled upward. Dante let out a growl as he continued to ravage every inch of her. Fiona obliged and was as much a brutal animal as he was.
The sun filtered in through the curtains and before she even opened her eyes Fiona knew that he was not there. She rolled over in bed and reached out to confirm this. The night before was...more than she thought possible. She and Dante had been lovers for many years, but something was different now. Now that he knew who she really was. She dreaded the possibility that he might put the pieces of the puzzle together and figure out the rest, but she would have to just be more careful from here on out. They had already decided that the agency shouldn't find out about this, so her secret was safe from him a little longer.
Her cell phone, set to vibrate, began to dance about on the shelf by the bed. She looked at the number. Crap. This was not good. If they found out that she lost him....
“This is Fiona.”
The female voice on the other end of the line sounded impatient.
“Where is he now?”
Fiona cringed at the thought of lying to the Agency, as that was something that usually did not end well. She cleared her throat and answered in a more hushed tone to support what she was about to say.
“He’s sleeping.”

The voice sounded even less patient than it had a moment ago. In fact now it was just angry.
“Why didn't you do it? You had orders.”
“The time was wrong. Too many civilians. Don't worry.”
“You have a job to do. We do not appreciate the delay. Take care of it.” The click on the other end of the phone was a stark reminder of her duty to the agency.
Fiona set down her phone with a wistful look on her face. She knew what she was supposed to do, and now that she had come all this way it was harder than she thought. She got out of bed, and took a bottle from the icebox. If there were ever a time for this, she thought. She poured herself a glass of rum and shot it back like it was nothing. The burning on her lips woke her up and she looked around for Dante.
She breathed a sigh of relief when she found him on the deck. He had a look on his face she had seen before. She stood behind him and cleared her throat.
“Dante- let me-“
“No. Don't. Everything I knew about you was a lie! How can I trust you again?”
Fiona took a hesitant step toward him, knowing better than to go any further.
“Because I was brought in to watch over you. It's the very reason you must trust me. And I ...” She looked down at her hands, suddenly nervous.
“No. Don't say it. Don't do this. You know as well as I do that it will only make this worse. You knew what this was when you agreed to it. You knew not to get emotionally involved.”
She snapped her head up to face him, and set her jaw in a determined manner.
“I know, I just-- you're right. You're always right, aren't you? We had an agreement, and I am a woman of my word...”

Monday, October 27, 2008

Studying Dante, chapters 3 and 4

Chapter 3

July 28, 2008, Santa Cruz

Fiona knew she had to see Dante again. It was not only inevitable, but necessary for her sanity. Dante had always confused her so; when she was with him she was euphoric and when they were apart she felt inconsolable. It went against everything that made any sense to her in this world. She found the nearest payphone, pulled her only remaining quarter from her pocket, and as always, checked to see which state was represented. She smiled; it was from New York, the city she used to call home before it had all gone wrong for her.
Fiona popped the quarter into the slot on the front of the phone and dialed. Her heart sped up as she waited for him to answer. Without realizing it, her right foot tapped impatiently on the sidewalk. What seemed to be a lifetime turned out to be four rings, and he finally answered in his own way:

“Dante.”
Her heart skipped a beat when she heard his voice. She had called him from a payphone so that he would have to answer. She knew that when he didn’t recognize the number he would pick up, in case he was being given instructions on a job.
“You know who this is.”
She realized she sounded somewhat breathless, but it couldn’t be helped. This was the effect he had on her.
“I was waiting for your call. I wondered how long you would wait.”
Dante had an amused tone to his voice. Fiona knew he was only teasing, but still played the game right along with him.
“Well, the wait is over. Where are you?”
Dante chuckled as he answered, “On my luxury yacht, sailing, drinking; leading the life of a millionaire. Where are you?”
Fiona paused, unsure of how much she was ready to tell him. “I had a …job. I’m finished with that now. What are you doing tonight?”
“Wishing I wasn’t thinking of you…your long hair, sinfully soft skin, those green eyes..” Dante trailed off, and it was clear he was lost in thought.
Fiona began to get a little anxious. “When can I see you again?” She knew what his answer would be, and suddenly wasn’t sure she should have called him at all.
“Meet me for coffee in ten minutes around the corner.”
Fiona was taken aback as she asked him, “Around the corner from where?”
“Around the corner from where you are standing right now.” Dante had a hint of a smile in his voice now, and Fiona whipped her head around to see where he was. Dante laughed out loud now. “I don’t know why you bother with that. You’ll never find me. See you in ten.”

Fiona would never get used to his ability to find her, no matter where she was. During their four days together, so many ideas had been discussed. Not the least of which was the idea of running off together. The very thought of it made her heart skip a beat. She had brushed it off at the time, laughing it off as if it was the silliest thing in the world. The sun was setting and a light rain had settled in as she looked for the coffee shop he spoke of. It was that time of day that makes it quite hard to distinguish the features of faces passing by, which made Fiona even more anxious. The street began to fill with people heading out for late meals, and the fluttery feeling in Fiona’s stomach was mirrored in the buzz of new activity. One by one, light from the streetlamps landed on a tall figure heading toward her. Their time together suddenly seemed as though it had been a lifetime away, and now she wasn’t sure she could believe her eyes. Was this really him, walking toward her? After all they had been through, would this really be so easy? This man, who had been more perfect than she had thought possible, was getting closer and her stomach lurched a bit with every step. Her excitement grew by leaps and bounds, and for a brief moment she doubted he would stop walking when he got to her.

Dante gave his signature half smile when he was close enough to be sure that she would see him. Their high-velocity relationship had been a little much for him at times, but as Fiona came into focus so did his purpose. A sense of calm filled him for the first time in his recent memory. Only when he was with her did his jaw unclench, and his eyes soften. He stood very close to her now, and after leaning in for a soft kiss he said,
“I’m so glad you could meet me. Our time together got me thinking…”
Fiona looked lost in thought for a brief moment, and within that instant shook away whatever was distracting her.
“You’re up to no good again, I’m sure.”
Dante smiled, and Fiona was certain she saw a twinkle in his eye. He reached into his inside jacket pocket and pulled out two pieces of thick paper. Fiona saw the small print on one of the papers, and wondered what Dante was up to.
“I have a surprise for you, sweets. Can you leave town?” As he spoke, he handed her one of the papers. It was a plane ticket. Her eyes attempted to focus on the words despite the darkness surrounding her, though her heart began to thud so loudly in her chest she couldn’t read a word.
She looked deeply into Dante’s eyes. Was she sure? She had given this a lot of thought over the years, and while she was absolutely petrified, she knew she had to do this. She slipped a hand softly into his, gently caressing his fingers with hers. No, she was absolutely certain of this.
Fiona nodded at him, all the while matching his gaze. His eyes spoke volumes of what he had gone through for her, to bring her to this place. The scars he bore would be his burden forever, and for that she carried tremendous respect. She had a hard time deciding whether she would ever see him the same way again. He was finally ready to give her everything she had been hoping for. For that matter, he was actually able to show her the attention she’d been craving. The day she hoped for was finally here.
Yet, as much as she wanted this to happen there was a voice in the back of her mind reading her the riot act for what she was preparing to do. There was a reason they had met, she knew that to be true. But had she forgotten what that reason was?
Dante watched as Fiona fought her emotional battle in front of him. His brow furrowed as he began to question whether she would come with him after all. He had moved mountains to make this happen, and now it seemed to teeter on the edge of possibility.

Chapter 4
Several hours later, on a boat near the Caribbean, Fiona had forgotten all of her concerns about her future with Dante. She stretched out on the deck, in a bikini she bought on the way to the airport. Dante hadn’t told her where they were headed, just that she would need the bathing suit.
Dante watched her with adoration and a touch of alarm. It still amazed him that she could make him feel this way. What he didn’t know is that he still had the same effect on her. He would never know that whenever they spoke, she had butterflies in her stomach. That she was constantly terrified of making some silly mistake in front of him, that she wanted to always be perfect for him. She put an immense amount of time and energy into her appearance, her mannerisms. What she didn’t realize, and wouldn’t for several years, was that her quirky behavior still came through, and Dante adored it.
Dante watched as Fiona put on suntan lotion. He had always enjoyed watching her perform her various little rituals, though he never told her this. Why hadn't he, he wondered. After everything they'd been through, after she left her job for him. Maybe in not telling her how he felt, he avoided getting too comfortable with her. He’d loved the secrecy of it all, and was pretty sure he would miss that part of who they were. But here they were, together forever. They were sailing around the world, and at some point he would have to let down his guard.
From Fiona's vantage point on the deck she can see Dante watching her. She carefully, artfully applied tanning lotion they'd picked up on the way. She made sure to slowly stretch out each leg as she seductively applied a layer of lotion. When she finished, she leaned back in the chaise, and looked up at him. Her smile went on for days. Thinking of their plans together, she realized that she had given up her entire world for him. A job she loved (meeting all those movie stars was a perk), friends, family. But they were soulmates. Soul mates who, among millions, somehow found each other. When others had tried and failed, somehow Dante, International Spy, could behold Fiona Patrick’s perfect face and feel as though her were holding a cherished Michelango. A work of art.
As Dante’s attention returned to the helm, he gazed upon this long-lost treasure.
(to himself)
“Miles of ocean. Years of counter-terrorism ... is this where it all leads?”
Fiona glanced back to Dante, her smile accented by a small, unrubbed amount of sunscreen.
Dante’s world seemed to lurch at the sight of her smile. He would never be prepared for that feeling. He couldn’t help but mutter to himself,
“When it all seems to level off. when the sails are set and the rudder seems to have found its way. How can one small island, a peninsula, as it were, so disrupt my journey?”
As if to accent the thoughts in Dante's mind, Fiona made her way to the back of the boat and settled into the warmth and security of the helm. She looked at him and gave a serene smile, and a deep sigh.
“A penny for your thoughts.”
Fiona wrapped a towel around her shoulders as she said this, absent mindedly twirling a section of hair around one finger.
“A million pounds would not suffice.”
Dante’s response caused Fiona’s head to snap toward him, and she raised one eyebrow at his response. She had always had difficulty reading him, and now was no exception.